3months and less than a Hundred Days

So my supposedly Last Site Duty has come to end. But I still wonder if my Site Duty life is over yet? Coming down from the Hilltop after my supposedly Last daily checks, I had the feeling that it wouldn't be my last time. Even, as I treated my dear friends on site to Mac as my final treat before I left the Site, I did feel kinda awkward.

Then, I got a call from my friend in office, now they are demanding double manning on site, meaning 2person per site and that very high chance, I would have to go back to site for another cycle... Wonder if its a good thing anot. I had already packed my bags and said my goodbyes to site but now, I am going back. Its really funny and not really a pleasent thing. On the other hand, its solves the huge problem of me having to fill my many working days left on my ORD calendar with my miserable leave. Now, with this site, I will be clearing my leave all the way, no need to think when to or when not to take leave.

Deep down in my heart though, I guess I do want to go back to site and I don't really feel like going back to office anyway.... Life on site is better and with double manning, it can only get better eh....

Anyway, less than a hundred days... I have always dreamt of when I will reach this benchmark, but somehow, when its here, its doesn't seem so special. Prehaps coz I still have quite some time remaining to serve out. Somehow, I am not in the ORD mood...

I really hope that as it gets closer, my ORD joy will not be dulled...

Don't spoil my ORD ecstasy please.

3months 3wks and to do or not to do?

It is now a Sunday morning and I am feeling seriously bored. Just completed a game and kinda bored of playing Dota already. The weather is great, and its quite hard to feel down this lazy sunday afternoon. But here I am, typing and feeling very bored and quite down.

Its probably due to the fact that I have to go back to camp on Monday, something that I have not done in about a month. Even before I had stepped back in camp, I already got a call informing me to do this and do that when I get back. They just can't wait to dump work on me and I just can't wait to ORD. I just don't want to do NS anymore, simple as that. I don't want to go back as badly as they want me back to serve. I know I am about to ORD but its just seems too far away.

Which brings me to the question, should I continue doing site duty or not? Doing site brings me much badly needed off and somehows make time pass by faster. If I do site in August then probably when I am done with it, I can more or less get lost from the Army. But then, doing site is not that fun either, especially with Alpha. It is so boring there and sometimes I really feel like going back to office. Lol I know.

When I go back to Office, I really feel like going back to Site and when I go back to site, I start to kind of regret it...

Seems like ORD is the only option. Stop spoiling all my pretty Sundays.




A bad day fishing beats a good day working

4months 1wk and not Alpha plz

One last cycle of Site duty and thats all folks. Site duty is generally fun and way better than what staying in office can offer. I always look forward to doing site duty mainly because it means I do not need to stay in office. However, the fact that I sleep like 12hrs and play game for 6hrs on site everyday sounds really good, and it is.

However, when you do site, who you do with also matters alot. Its the difference between 18hrs of sleep & game and 18hrs of pure boredom. Actually whether I sleep and play on site doesn't affect anything at all but apparently the flight that I am gonna do with are plain Garang.
Garang implies doing something to the extreme however silly or senseless it is. The more silly and senseless, the more garang. Btw, Garang rhymes with Wayang too and they often come together.
They rather me sit on the couch and watch TV than let me sleep. Somehow I don't see the logic but then when you are in the Army, what is logic?


Anyway, had a class outing with my 1st 3mths JC clz... Was really great and you get that warm fuzzy feeling with them(ok maybe i am exaggerating but its close). Really what a great bunch of people to be with and it kinda sucks when we have to leave.


Just realised that the reason I take off is not because I got something on. Its just that I don't want to be in camp. Its that bad.

4months 3wks and I dont really care anymore

I hope time past faster than this but anyway I have already hit the 4months 3wk to ord. 3months to clear leave. Not much long to go and nothing much that can really happen or so I thought but sometimes it takes quite an incident to help us put things into perspective. Or at least re-evaluate our actions. Of course that means reflecting on our actions and where we went wrong and what we must do next.

The Incident: So I fell sick and went home to a clinic to see a doctor. So harmless and boring an action. But according to some control freak Army, it is not the case. You see, the one thing the Army is afraid of is the Civilian world. Mention the C word and the Army gets into a frenzy and starts to panic. Prehaps its something that they cannot control and it freaks them out or maybe the concept of a free world out there scares them shitless. Anyway back to my point, apparently a regular in the Army is totally against finding a civilian doctor and believes that every single one looking for a civilian doctor is malingering a.k.a faking it to get MC to get away from this shit-hole she dominates. Upon hearing me going to see a doctor outside of her control, she freaks out and demands that I be punished and I somehow end up having to stay in for 4weekdays unable to book out.

The Reflection: To me, staying in for 4weekdays is nothing. I have sort of been doing that for 1year already so its nothing to me. What I realise is that the Army is just something that doesn't really care what you have done right but only what you have done wrong and how it can get back at you. You see, the Army is in such a fragile state that it believes that in order to keep it all together it must punish any and every thing that goes out of way. The only way it can function is to create fear and punish punish punish to maintain that fear.

The Action: Well, if that is the way the Army is going to function then I am gonna go with the flow lest I be punished. I am going to dedicate all my energy to save myself from being punished and the best way to accomplish that in the Army is to do Nothing at all. Absolutely nothing. It is the safest and surest way. Prehaps what I have done wrong is trying to do some work for the Army. By even doing the slightest work means risking myself and I shall do that no more. I shall sit there and do nothing like what half the Army is doing anyway. Its not worth the effort in trying to do anything for the Army when the energy can be better used to avoid the punishment.
I don't care anymore and why should I.
Once bitten Twice shy.


Ain't no sweat coming from my eyes.

5months 1wk and Forever 19

Forever 19. Thats what I wanna be. Turning 20 on today 30th May 2006 is kinda suxs. Now my age starts with the big 2. There goes my teens and tens. 19 was pretty much a watershed year in sort of a bad way. A huge loss of innocence, a big step up to facing reality and of crushed dreams and hopes. Spent my 19 feeling jaded mostly I guess. Taking A lvls followed by serving NS, I guess its hard to come by anything worse. Hopefully it all passes with 19. I just want the age, not what is happening that year.

Anyway, this turning 20 was pretty cool. Got to eat free lunch and dinner. California Pizza taste pretty good and eating zhi char with frens taste as good. Also got mouse and mousepad. Something I craved but couldn't bear to spend the money to get it. Isn't B'daes and X'mas excuses to indirectly buy things that you wanted but juz couldn't part the money for? I even got an off day for my B'dae certainly one of the best prezzie. Prezzie roxs but nothing beats me getting a sms from my Dad. Like omg can u believe it. Thanks to everyone.

My Dad told me that I am 20, one year older and wiser. I concur with the former and I gonna work hard on the latter. This 20 will also be the year I ORD(finally) and the year I enter University(hmm...). Although I really duno what is gonna happen this 20, no one does anyway, I'll just hope. At least if it all turns out not so good, there still ORD. It can't go bad, can it?

5months 3wk and going to site

May, June and July. 3months on sites with 2weeks interval between. An ideal balance between office and site. And after that go clear leave and wait for Ord. My immediate plan and I hope it turns out fine. It seems a good plan to me but you always know what happens to good plans. They always screw up one way or the other and I hope it is not the case for once...

I guess its normal but I always have this strong resistance to change. I always like it as it is although it may be a change for the better. When I start to go site after some time in office, I feel kinda dread and when site duty ends, I can't bear to go back to office. Hope it doesn't me too badly in future coz I guess change is a constant.

Anyway, spending almost 2months in office is really quite a torture. Mental torture. Trying to navigate the bureaucracy in the Army is like navigating through burning coals. At least on site life is less complicated and more immediate. What needs to be done is done on the spot, no tomorrow do this, tmr do that and all the tmr worries. Just that I wonder if trading in a weekend for 2weekdays off is worth it... Sometimes it isn't I feel.

Well off to do site, and when my this site cycle ends its probably time for another post...
Till then seeya and Gd luck to my site duty.

6months 1wk and the importance of a good night sleep

This 2wks seem awfully long since the last time I posted. I guess its because it was due to me being in office rather than on site. Site does have a good way of disorientating your preception of time in such a way that time passed like a blur. You never know if its sunday or monday then when you actually check the date, it is already tuesday. Blame it on the irregular work hours, waking up at 5.30am and then going to back to sleep at 12noon and then waking up at 4pm to work and then going back to sleep and repeating everything. If it does sound confusing to you, it confuses me even more.

Even worse, on the day you book out, you have to wake up at like 5.30am before going off at like 9.30am. Most probably you would go home and sleep but for those who think that sleeping at home is a waste of time since you should do it during your NS, you would just go home and start playing game, like me. And when you go out at like 8pm and stay to like 12mid night, almost 20hrs awake, you get really sleepy and then irritable.
And if, there are taxi drivers that drive past your taxi stand repeatably without a passenger refusing to pick you up bcoz they want you to make a call for the cab so you they can make that extra $2.50, you get really pissed off. Apparently paying you 50% ain't enough and you want that extra $2.50. It just makes someone anti-taxi.


Of course when you go home and get a good sleep, everything is forgiven when you wake up.
So, I'll still continue taking taxi, if I can get a good night sleep that is.